Lash or Leash

Self-control asleep at the wheel

Buried in the kind of task

That carries only a sick appeal

Back to sleep

At arms length

Never withheld

Anxiety, the lash or the leash

Another mouth to feed

The sullen sun a soured star

Growing to consume

It has to be there

Dirt under these nails

Peel it all away

Layer by layer of fear

Far from the belonging sought

Yet this isolation is a wish

Hoping that you'll fall apart

Completion a curse run from

More selfish pursuits

Burying the lead to believe

You could never be enough

Self-deception of these perceptions

Helter-skelter in disguise

Only now realized

Convincing and conniving

A mask here down below

Receding then reviving

Depressive waves that ebb and flow

Surrounded by such living colors

Submerged in a kind of liquid

Bottomless it crowds your lungs

Pulling at the weeds

Where roots beg for the grasping

A task of self-reliant violence

Hands afraid of the asking

Price too steep to bargain

You'd find her here again

And foolishly still run your mouth

Having no other projects

Injuries you failed to mend

Friendships doomed to failure

Loves left meaningless

A wayside for a homestead

Time all for the wasting

Liminal you lay your head

Trying to convince yourself

Worthlessness is more a rule

Than a guideline after all

You're less than exceptional

Another headline swallowed

Background radiation

The static in your head now

Changing the radio station

It has to be there

Justification

For all of this self-hatred

Just another cycle

Until the waves return

To carry you back up

A whirlwind you scarcely remember

Carried in the chariots of gods

Reviving and receiving

Manic waves that ebb and flow

Deviant you fall from grace

Falling in love

Here on your face

Felling feelings spawned in haste

Sparks malformed

Shown as mistakes

Cut down by spells miscast

Rattling apart at the seams

A part to play at last

If only in her dreams

Lash or Leash

Art is AI generated using Wombo Dream App