I'm so tired Of the unequivocal drivel I'm still a victim dear Of the quiet and the rain And the shadow on my doorstep Of guests who never came Arrivals still postponing Bones still drenched in warnings Moaning out Such subliminal agonies Beneath fingers I can't feel Heights I cannot reach Feelings that can't be real Of when I held your hand And practiced in the mirror And what I meant was said And what I said you simply didn't hear Somewhere your sickness chokes me In that i

Life is full of ups and downs but sometimes it's also full of indifference, numbness. Sometimes it seems like no matter what we do we can't catch a break while other times it feels like life goes on without us making the slightest effort. Sometimes doing nothing works while swinging for the fences ends in utter disaster. If I had words I'd sing a song I'd rearrange the stars Up in smoke Set off like sparks Flattened here Still and barely Inhaling Even' stars Such a moon Forgo

Blasphemous I rearrange these stones Foolish to believe We were cut from the same quarry Simultaneous The damage caused A bright star disappearing Vanished from my skies Catacombs The farther I go The deeper the wishing I was the one disappearing Absolute zero Now frozen lungs Just idling here Thinking I was worth a damn Continuum Biting tongues Just biding Wishing I was worth your time With melancholy reservations I construct a future without myself And set these keys like s